LOST
LOST
He being brought down from the ambulance to the stretcher oh
gosh I cannot look at him… if I cant surely Swapna can never … the ward boys
were making it really fast to the operation theatre but I was sure he will not
be able to make it … but still somewhere my heart was not able to admit it…
Swapna didn’t knew that he is in such bad condition infact she didn’t knew that
he has met with such a terrible accident;
gosh I cannot look at him… if I cant surely Swapna can never … the ward boys
were making it really fast to the operation theatre but I was sure he will not
be able to make it … but still somewhere my heart was not able to admit it…
Swapna didn’t knew that he is in such bad condition infact she didn’t knew that
he has met with such a terrible accident;
I was asking myself
whether to tell Swapna about all this or leave her with the piece of knowledge
she had; Swapna who posted a photo of him with a message that read : “hey
fellas all you out there this is my boyfriend
who went on to cover the Ganges in Haridwar, went missing along with his
reporter friend please help me find him, neither his phone is working nor he
has contacted, I request you to please share this post as much as you can and
request everyone you know to share it so that it reaches to each and everyone
and I can get some news about this silly guy who went missing without even
thinking of me”,
whether to tell Swapna about all this or leave her with the piece of knowledge
she had; Swapna who posted a photo of him with a message that read : “hey
fellas all you out there this is my boyfriend
who went on to cover the Ganges in Haridwar, went missing along with his
reporter friend please help me find him, neither his phone is working nor he
has contacted, I request you to please share this post as much as you can and
request everyone you know to share it so that it reaches to each and everyone
and I can get some news about this silly guy who went missing without even
thinking of me”,
as the light outside operation theatre turned on my mind and
heart took me back to our college:
heart took me back to our college:
First year, First Day
I went inside and sat on the table behind Swapna, I really
never had a girlfriend but it was not like that I never wanted to have one, we
formally got introduced, Swapna being from a convent school was good in
everything be it studies, way of communication, anything/everything. I and
Swapna were in the middle of conversation about the things that brought us here
to engineering, suddenly this boy with long brown hairs and whitish complexion
came upto me held me from my coller raised me from my seat and yelled at me
never had a girlfriend but it was not like that I never wanted to have one, we
formally got introduced, Swapna being from a convent school was good in
everything be it studies, way of communication, anything/everything. I and
Swapna were in the middle of conversation about the things that brought us here
to engineering, suddenly this boy with long brown hairs and whitish complexion
came upto me held me from my coller raised me from my seat and yelled at me
“This girl is mine, and you don’t have the right to praise
her or talk”
her or talk”
Before I could have uttered a word Swapna rose from the seat
Excuse me! Who the hell do you think you are and who said
that I am your girl…. Bugger off ..
that I am your girl…. Bugger off ..
Listen girl I’m really sorry but I didn’t mean to hurt you
or your feeling I just wan to have you both as my friend .. sorry if I hurt
you..
or your feeling I just wan to have you both as my friend .. sorry if I hurt
you..
What kind of behaviour is this, friend, you or the guys like
you can never be my friend, leave him and don’t ever show me your face again
you can never be my friend, leave him and don’t ever show me your face again
He obliged and went ahead. After the introductory session of
our class got over we all were asked for the lunch where girls and boys were
had different different sections. Girls went their side and we boys were forced
in a smaller space to avoid any kind of ragging activity we were given lunch an
hour before the scheduled time of the college. The same long haired guy came to
me,
our class got over we all were asked for the lunch where girls and boys were
had different different sections. Girls went their side and we boys were forced
in a smaller space to avoid any kind of ragging activity we were given lunch an
hour before the scheduled time of the college. The same long haired guy came to
me,
Dude I’m really sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you I was just
being ragged by the seniors and they pointed at you since you were the only guy
sitting with the girls being a hosteller I had to obilige them, and please do
forward my apology to your friend as well.
being ragged by the seniors and they pointed at you since you were the only guy
sitting with the girls being a hosteller I had to obilige them, and please do
forward my apology to your friend as well.
Offcousre I will, btw I am sameul.. nice meeting you
Anuttam… same here buddy…
That small conversation all of a sudden brought a lot of
respect for Anuttam. I forwarded the same message to Swapna, but she refused to
listen anything regarding Anuttam. So I thought of better leaving it and
thought of moving ahead.
respect for Anuttam. I forwarded the same message to Swapna, but she refused to
listen anything regarding Anuttam. So I thought of better leaving it and
thought of moving ahead.
Life started moving in engineering but I and Swapna & I
and Anuttambecame bestg of the friends but I was never able to bring them both
on the same platform. If I would ever plan to go out hanging with both of them,
earlier or the latter had an excuse. So I had to settle down with the one only
either Swapna or Anuttam. Life was moving smoothly till Girish a friend of Anuttamsaid something that
was inappropriate for Swapna and Anuttamwas standing that moment with him.
and Anuttambecame bestg of the friends but I was never able to bring them both
on the same platform. If I would ever plan to go out hanging with both of them,
earlier or the latter had an excuse. So I had to settle down with the one only
either Swapna or Anuttam. Life was moving smoothly till Girish a friend of Anuttamsaid something that
was inappropriate for Swapna and Anuttamwas standing that moment with him.
Swapna took it seriously and mistook Anuttamas the offender.
You have always tried to bring that guy and me on the same
platform, but you know what Sameul he
can never match upto my level.
platform, but you know what Sameul he
can never match upto my level.
Slow down and tell me what happened
Nothing just ask you gutter head friend to be away from me
Fine I’ll ask him
Dude, what do you think you have done, Swapna was mad at
you.
you.
Nothing buddy it was Girish who said something and she took
it very seriously, there was I think nothing that serious.
it very seriously, there was I think nothing that serious.
Why do you stay with such guys who malign your image.
Chill man they are my friend as you are, and if your friend
doesn’t like them than that’s not my headache, ask her to change her ‘chasma’
doesn’t like them than that’s not my headache, ask her to change her ‘chasma’
Buddy if you can go and apologise her for my sake.
Its you who is asking me to apologise, who knows everything
For my sake
Fine, but control her from crossing her limits
She will be in…
Great
The following day:
Hey! Swapna I’m sorry for whatever my friends have said
about you.. Anuttamobliged me
about you.. Anuttamobliged me
Who do you think you are, you gutter head, just because you
are a friend of sameul that doesn’t gives you the right to say anything about
me on my back..
are a friend of sameul that doesn’t gives you the right to say anything about
me on my back..
Hold on lady, I know you are mad at me and my friends but
you don’t have the right to cross your limits
you don’t have the right to cross your limits
Limits, look who is asking me to be in the limits… fuck you
Yes come on fuck me you bitch … bloody shit head .. you know
what if a guy in this college with full erection takes your name his penis
looks up curses him and goes on a holiday for the next 2 weeks.
what if a guy in this college with full erection takes your name his penis
looks up curses him and goes on a holiday for the next 2 weeks.
How dare you talk to me like this, I can get you expelled
from this college
from this college
Leave it first come and fuck me ..
Wait wait what you guys are doing AnuttamI just asked you to
apologise and this is how you apologise I interrupted them
apologise and this is how you apologise I interrupted them
I did the same but your friend was interested in fucking me
Sameul insects will always be the insects,
Look how is she talking and the same way she was talking
when you were not here
when you were not here
Fuck you both said in unison and left, leaving me in the
centre of corridor.
centre of corridor.
The tap on my shoulder from nurse brought me to present day
and that curve of smile which was because of those memories lost somewhere and
I enquired nurse about Anuttam, she handed over a piece of paper saying they
are trying their best and asked to bring those medicines as fast as I can. I
followed, brought the medicines from the gap between the doors (which nurse
opened to take medicines) I looked at him all the pipes were inserted inside
his body some in his veins some in mouth. I was now sure that Swapna will not
be able to look at it. So I opted not to tell her till I get some good news.
and that curve of smile which was because of those memories lost somewhere and
I enquired nurse about Anuttam, she handed over a piece of paper saying they
are trying their best and asked to bring those medicines as fast as I can. I
followed, brought the medicines from the gap between the doors (which nurse
opened to take medicines) I looked at him all the pipes were inserted inside
his body some in his veins some in mouth. I was now sure that Swapna will not
be able to look at it. So I opted not to tell her till I get some good news.
It was 2 in the morning and it has already been 2:30 hrs
since operation began but the doctors were not in the condition to give some
relief, the parents of Anuttamwere to be informed they too were waiting for my
call, already rang 10 times since the operation begun…. Finally, the light
outside operation theatre went green and team of doctors started coming out. I
enquired about him, after a discussion the senior doctor patted my back
since operation began but the doctors were not in the condition to give some
relief, the parents of Anuttamwere to be informed they too were waiting for my
call, already rang 10 times since the operation begun…. Finally, the light
outside operation theatre went green and team of doctors started coming out. I
enquired about him, after a discussion the senior doctor patted my back
He is doing fine and the next 24hrs are very important for
him, 60% chances are he will make it and the rest is in the hands of god.
him, 60% chances are he will make it and the rest is in the hands of god.
Thank you so much doctor
I rang up his parents and finally gave them some positive
news. Mother of Anuttamwas since than sitting in temple and wishing for his
wellbeing, even my mother had arranged a fist for poors, this guy was full of
life anywhere he went he brought life to the moment. Even the post on fb by
Swapna had crossed over a thousand shares, sometimes I used to be jealous of
him, being so much loved by everyone.
news. Mother of Anuttamwas since than sitting in temple and wishing for his
wellbeing, even my mother had arranged a fist for poors, this guy was full of
life anywhere he went he brought life to the moment. Even the post on fb by
Swapna had crossed over a thousand shares, sometimes I used to be jealous of
him, being so much loved by everyone.
Back to college
After a lot of persuasion both Swapna and Anuttamgot ready
to settle thing between them. Both apologised and we went on to become one
single group from 2 different. Before exams Swapna used to teach us both
sometimes I used to give it a miss reason being my gf but Anuttamnever did,
that brought them even closer, most of time they can be seen together and that gave
gossipmongers inside college a new thing to discus, whether they are couple or
not but I was sure till yet they were not.
to settle thing between them. Both apologised and we went on to become one
single group from 2 different. Before exams Swapna used to teach us both
sometimes I used to give it a miss reason being my gf but Anuttamnever did,
that brought them even closer, most of time they can be seen together and that gave
gossipmongers inside college a new thing to discus, whether they are couple or
not but I was sure till yet they were not.
College fest approached and it was our turn to perform, I
& Anuttamwere all set to perform a dance number and as the performance came
to an end Anuttamwent on his knees and proposed Swapna, Swapna who was sitting in audience choose to
leave and there was one word that came out his mouth Shit! And I can understand
what was going on with him, he could not even stand, from behind I saw Swapna
coming with a rose in one hand and mic
in other, not only me but most of the college was surprised with this,she
tapped on his shoulder gave him the rose and gently kissed on his cheek;
& Anuttamwere all set to perform a dance number and as the performance came
to an end Anuttamwent on his knees and proposed Swapna, Swapna who was sitting in audience choose to
leave and there was one word that came out his mouth Shit! And I can understand
what was going on with him, he could not even stand, from behind I saw Swapna
coming with a rose in one hand and mic
in other, not only me but most of the college was surprised with this,she
tapped on his shoulder gave him the rose and gently kissed on his cheek;
Fool I went to bring a fool for you, I love you Annuttam
As they hugged the whole college went on its feet, nothing
can be heard except the sound of hands as they were hugging I borrowed a camera
from one of my colleague and stored the best moment of my best friends inside
it. They were the loveliest couple in college, they had everything one need to
complete a relationship. Their love was approved by respective families as
well. After college Swapna went for a corporate job and Anuttam applied for
photojournalist.
can be heard except the sound of hands as they were hugging I borrowed a camera
from one of my colleague and stored the best moment of my best friends inside
it. They were the loveliest couple in college, they had everything one need to
complete a relationship. Their love was approved by respective families as
well. After college Swapna went for a corporate job and Anuttam applied for
photojournalist.
One evening I received a call from Swapna enquiring me about
Anuttam, whether I had any knowledge about where he is, I said he went to cover
Ganges in Haridwar even she had this piece of knowledge but his phone went
unreachable. I advised her to be patient as he might have gone in some mobile
area and he can take care of himself.
Anuttam, whether I had any knowledge about where he is, I said he went to cover
Ganges in Haridwar even she had this piece of knowledge but his phone went
unreachable. I advised her to be patient as he might have gone in some mobile
area and he can take care of himself.
But she was not able to understand anything her point was
also understandable there were riots in muzaffarnagar, the riots shook the
whole nation.
also understandable there were riots in muzaffarnagar, the riots shook the
whole nation.
I advised her to wait for some more time. the following
night I received a phone call from the sp city that my friend was the one too
got injured in riots and they are transferring him to AIIMS. I picked up my
keys and drove towards AIIMS and found him in this condition.
night I received a phone call from the sp city that my friend was the one too
got injured in riots and they are transferring him to AIIMS. I picked up my
keys and drove towards AIIMS and found him in this condition.
As the morning approached I rang his parents and Swapna and
told them about him that he is stable now and the doctors will be able to give
their final call within 24 hrs only. They all came up in hospital.
told them about him that he is stable now and the doctors will be able to give
their final call within 24 hrs only. They all came up in hospital.
Everything was going well he even smiled by looking at
Swapna but soon his organs started giving up first it was kidney, then liver
and we again were in a critical condition. The doctors team was again in the
operation theatre and same red light turned on. Within 10 mins of entering
operation theatre the team came out and they said sorry, they could not save my
friend.
Swapna but soon his organs started giving up first it was kidney, then liver
and we again were in a critical condition. The doctors team was again in the
operation theatre and same red light turned on. Within 10 mins of entering
operation theatre the team came out and they said sorry, they could not save my
friend.
He died and with him his parents I and Swapna too died.
Swapna went directly to his home without even uttering a single word. I
informed her of his last rituals, she didn’t respond.
Swapna went directly to his home without even uttering a single word. I
informed her of his last rituals, she didn’t respond.
Just a fb post the same photo that I clicked when Swapna
kissed him on the stage with the message “no matter where you go, whether you
are with me or not but you will always be mine and remember only you had the
right to love me cuddle me, I loved you, I love you and will always do”
kissed him on the stage with the message “no matter where you go, whether you
are with me or not but you will always be mine and remember only you had the
right to love me cuddle me, I loved you, I love you and will always do”
Both of friends were Lost that day, Anuttam lost it to the
hands of death and Swapna lost it to
him… The girl who was make-up freak was fashionista has now started
living without makeup in simple plain suits ….. Love won my heart but LOST my
friends……
hands of death and Swapna lost it to
him… The girl who was make-up freak was fashionista has now started
living without makeup in simple plain suits ….. Love won my heart but LOST my
friends……
