Before I start writing let me apologise for not being a good friend… Sorry mishra I could not help you… I could not confront you and was not able to help you out …. Sorry once again…
It was evening, I was heading back home from office, in metro I was keenly listening the conversation between two friends one of whom was married and was involved in extramarital affair. The married guy was asking his friend to pass on his message to rest of the friend circle, it was like please donot make jokes on my wife, you guys can make fun of my girlfriend.
This line took me back to our college days when I was fully in love with my then girlfriend and used to end up in a fight if anyone used to say anything foul to my girlfriend…I used to be in love with my every new girl…. The same thing happened with my friends as well … Rajat being the eye candy among girls… has a number of relationships…. LOVE IS TRANSFERABLE …. Is it???
I thought again and finally ended upon a conclusion that relations are nothing but needs.. as soon as we need parents we used to be with them.. then comes this girlfriend thing … for whom we use to fight with our parents .. and if we go with our parents wish than we leave them and start our very own family…
Buddy I am apologising for using your name neither I want to hurt you nor I am trying to prove you wrong .. They are just my feelings that my heart said I should express.. Everyone has his/her own life and they should live it on their own terms… Marrying your GF is not a bad thing but you should double check yourself before entering into a relationship..
Journey from Facebook to Whatsapp
September 15, 2011: I was at Ghaziabad bus station waiting for the bus to Meerut… My third year of engineering was about to kick off from 20th of this month there is nothing to be happy about engineering or about my college like every other engineer story our successor and predecessor batches were full of chicks and our batch mates were just busy spanking the monkey thinking day and night about them only… every other junior was either my sister in law or was of my friend… well, I am Aniket student of mechanical branch of MRI engineering college on the outskirts of Meerut. As the name mechanical came you all must have understood that our day is like a tribute to the boring lectures and night is dedicated to our hand as my friend calls it HATH JAGGANATH. Clearly we didn’t even had a teacher who we can call beautiful, sexy or any other word made for women.
Coming back, I was busy in turning my lips black (Smoking) I spotted Swanna getting off from the bus and as everyone says bad luck follows every engineer especially if he/she is from UPTU my bus arrived and going by the announcements it was most probably the last bus to Meerut… Damn fuck you … Swanna was the cutest girl I have ever met in my school days, in engineering every other girl seems cute. On one end my friends had made some arrangements before college kicks off and on the other hand I may get a chance to have few words with this girl, friends were there when I got back(failed in 1 or 2 subject but promoted to next year), friends taught me to smoke, booze and many other things…. Confused, my heart was in the favour of girl, head in friends and my legs listened to heart and started walking towards the girl… Phone rang up… Ajay…
Hey buddy! Have you left asked Ajay
Yes /No what should I say…..
Speak up bro…
Yaar..
Bloody motherfucker you coming down to meerut, I don’t know how but by 10 PM I want you here or I am going to kick your ass… He yelled
Sorry Ajay …
Get your mother fucked in Ghaziabad….
He hang up…
Ab toh jaana padega my heart and head said in unison…
Meerut……
After boozing as usual everyone started walking off out of the room to have ice cream…
Tu ni aayega kya .. Mandeep asked
Ni yaar, you guys go ahead I need to sleep, you know tired….
As soon as they left, My hands automatically searched for the laptop, index finger turned it on, middle finger keeps on scrolling over the mouse pad, refreshed refreshed …. turned on the wifi …. Connected… opened chrome… facebook tab…
Logged into facebook … inbetween all this my mind was asking me to sleep… Hat saale let me search her…
Swanna … 500+ results…
Not this one, neither this…..
Tu to sone jaa rha tha…. bloody bitch.. yelled Jay
Haan bs so hi rha hu…
Kon hai ye saman… asked mandeep
Pta ni yr.. I am toh searching for someone else…
Abe request bhej na..
Like this I had sent around 10 friend requests to all those girls who placed Barbie or some other picture s their dp..
You are blocked from sending friend requests for 15 days….
Damn shit man….
Ab to so ja Balatkaari…
Next day movie in the night, after movie again browsed for Swaana. Although i knew couldn’t friend request but atleast I can find her….
Next day passed , another day… College reopened…
But still I could not get over with the ghost of Swanna(Mechanical effect). Finally after one month, I left the hope of seeing her again… and got myself busy the usual stuff(bird watching and all).
January 20, 2012: Last practical of the 5th semester…
Or kaisa hua BC.. I asked to Jay
Hona kaisa tha fad diya tere bhai ne… He replied
Chal M bhi aata hu…
Back to room…
Daaru chalegi raat me… Dhanu, Raj or baki bhi aa rhe h… mandeep asked
Contri krke manga lo… I and Jay replied in unison…
I logged into my fb account and as soon as it loaded completely Swanna was there in people you may know corner.
Opened her page sent her the request and started browsing through her photographs.. download all
I was on cloud nine, you can say on ten eleven ….
After daaru, checked whether she accepted or not… not yet… refreshed not yet too…
The next morning we all left to our respective homes, semester leaves… We engineers get tired after every semester and need a break to get recharged, which may take around a month(if someone from the group is not turning up early)….
Back to Ghaziabad: my daily routine was to check Swanna’s profile … was i in love… when that stupid thought used to come i would go out and smoke … (that provides some relief, try it yourself)
While chatting with some foreigners in the night a message popped up the screen…. Swanna…
Hey Aniket.. Message read
Hey Swanna … I replied
Hows you doing Buddy… She asked
Am doing great, you say… I replied
I am great too.. BTW glad to know about you..
Thank you… where are you these days…
Thank you for what?? In Meerut… life ko saada rhi hu..
For being glad after knowing that I am good…
I am in meerut too … engineering kar rhi ho kya??
Yes… How you figured out??
Main bhi sadda rha hu π
Which college?
MRI…. yours???
Mine is Shiva.. She replied
Great yr… You kept your words of making it to a good college .. I complimented
Whats so great about it… She asked
A good college brings you a good placement opportunity.. I replied
And after that ? She asked
Whatever you wish.. I replied
I will get married and will be treated as a household maid or a factory to produce child.. she replied
I don’t think the way you go..
What you think?
I will never have problem with my wife going for a job, as long as we both and our respective families are comfortable …
You are grown up, I wish my father may search someone who think the same way as you think…
Mjse hi kar lo…. I said teasing her
Papa will not agree for inter-caste marriage…. She replied
Yr tut oh serious hi ho gyi… joking yr, I too don’t wanna go against my fathers wish…
Got you buddy, chalo talk to you later.. bye
From there on we started late night chatting and in the of our conversations exchanged our contact details …. Now late night facebook chatting changed to late night phone calls… my morning now starts with her good morning message and night use to end on the phone itself … sometimes we use to sleep on the call itself, actually most of the time.. every bit of the details started getting exchanged .. she is the sweetest dream my eyes could have ever dreamt of.. I started searching her in every girl on the road, vacations became the time we use to meet (being from the same city).
In between all this Google launched android and we both completed our graduation, I got the job with my father’s jack (source, jack as it is popularly known among engineers), and she because of her ability.
We both got busy in our respective professional lives, long phone calls went down. But our love life was still going strong, weekends became my favourite as they were the days Swanna and I used to come out of our world which used to be enclosed within phone calls and whatsapp chat. Two days used to be filled with complete life, joy excitement and above all two days were filled with Swanna.
As we progressed in our professional lives, OUR (time that we used to spend together) time was consumed by our profession, differences occurred, we started fighting up, and the whole mess was created by this whatsapp last seen feature…
Aniket and Swanna are not together but they still love each other more than anything else…. Sometimes we are meant to fell in love, but not to live together…
Many of my friends complain me about my nature, I had multiple relationships they always say look who is talking Ankur Dutt Tyagi who himself went on to have about a dozen of relationships.. I will not correct myself yes I had many relationships but I loved only a single girl in this universe.. I cheated her not a single but multiple times… I confronted this to her and now we are not together…
She hasn’t left me but I forced her out of this shitty life… She deserved someone better… The last day that we talked my words were: Baby I had the most beautiful flower in the world but it’s me who don’t deserve flowers… She rang up on my birthday and asked me to be back into the relation, my eyes went watery… I couldn’t say anything just hang on the call…